“Keeping certain moments unshared not to be private, but to be untouched.”
There truly is freedom in the unknown.
I live and face the battle of wanting to share or keep it private everyday. This feeling so often present has made me realize why I bother wanting to share - it’s to find connection. That somehow, somewhere, There are others that share the same fond and would like to converse and I do enjoy back and forth conversations — but that fulfilled feeling starts to become addictive and I end up in a loop of constant questioning - to share or not to share? because the what If feels like “possible regret”.
When I catch myself in this state, I can atleast stop. But I hate that I need to “catch myself”, that I need to un-train myself from it.
But I do feel more free, more at ease - when I can decide not to care. I
“Keeping certain moments unshared not to be private, but to be untouched.”
There truly is freedom in the unknown.
I live and face the battle of wanting to share or keep it private everyday. This feeling so often present has made me realize why I bother wanting to share - it’s to find connection. That somehow, somewhere, There are others that share the same fond and would like to converse and I do enjoy back and forth conversations — but that fulfilled feeling starts to become addictive and I end up in a loop of constant questioning - to share or not to share? because the what If feels like “possible regret”.
When I catch myself in this state, I can atleast stop. But I hate that I need to “catch myself”, that I need to un-train myself from it.
But I do feel more free, more at ease - when I can decide not to care. I
Oh, to be human.
Thank you for reading and for your thoughtful comment🤍 i relate to this more than I expected to.
especially the part where it starts to feel addictive.
sometimes I’m not even sharing to express anymore just to feel that brief sense of being met.
but the moments I keep to myself feel quieter. less touched.
like they still belong to me.🤍
inveì read that we fall in love not fully with the person, but mostly fall in love of the person we are with them